Will I ever be enough?

I believe that this is the most pressing of all questions that anyone can ask themselves.  But, in alot of ways I think that it is an insight into ones self when you question yourself this.  Most people ask themselves this and only a few may truely know if the answer is really yes.

I will have to admitt that this is the same question that I ask myself ever day that I get up.  Does it mean that I am doubting myself?  To a certain point I guess that I am.  But, in all fairness, I will have to admitt that I know the answer to this question.  No matter what area of life that I may ask myself this such as will I ever be enough for my family, my boyfriend, my friends etc.  Most of the time the answer is no.

Maybe it is because I am my biggest critic.  Am I smart enough, am I doing enough, do I make him happy enough.  Will enough ever be enough?  In some of these areas I know the answer will always and forever be no. 

I will never love enough, worry enough, or strive enough when it comes to being a mother.  A mother.    It just seems like yesterday that I was bringing home my oldest from the hospital.  Will I teach my children enough to live and survive in the outside world?

Don't know in that area.  But, for the rest of me, I am still a woman other than being a mother.  And in that area I know the answer even more truely.  I will never be enough.  Never pretty enough, strong enough, feminine enough, loving enough, and so on. 

Men expect the world handed to them.  I just expect the answer yes.  So will I ever be enough?  My answer to that is no.  But, I can live with it.